Daisies and Dialogue

It was Flower Communion Sunday at Church today.  For those who aren’t familiar with this UU tradition, congregants bring flowers which are then distributed during the service.  The idea is that the individuality of each flower, like each member, combines to create something even more beautiful than its parts, and each person takes a flower to remind themselves of that beauty.

I took a daisy, because it reminded me of the Wise and Wonderful Betty Gray.  All day, I’ve been thinking of the story she told me about the day someone said, “Betty, you have the loudest laugh I’ve ever heard.”  I can’t remember who the speaker was, but it stuck with me because it was true.  Grandma had the most wonderful, big, big laugh.  There was no doubt when something caught her funny because she didn’t hold back at all.

I’ve been thinking of her because this morning Ian found a coupon on the kitchen table, all folded up.  He picked it up and said, “‘Oh, no!’ cried Mommy, ‘What happened to this?'” Grandma would have LOVED that story.  And she would have loved to hear how tall he looked standing at the end of King Street watching the boats and the ducks yesterday.  And she’d have been beside herself if I called to tell her about Ian saying, “Mommy, you banged the door so you gotta go in time out” after I shut the car door too hard.  (Well, really, doesn’t some of that kind of make you want to shoot milk out your nose?) And I, myself, would have loved calling her to tell her about it, because nothing beat being able to say, “I made Grandma laugh today.”

Goodbye to the Wise and Wonderful Betty Gray

Mary Elizabeth Gray
(The Wise and Wonderful Betty Gray)

Feb 3 1917-Feb 16 2010

Grandma hated to say goodbye. In fact, she’d usually just wave a hand at us and disappear, tearfully, into the house when it was time for us to go. It made her too sad to say a formal goodbye to us. So I suppose, in a way, that it is fitting that I’ve been unable to compose my thoughts in farewell to her.

I know the thought of me without words is like a day without air, but in the case of my grandmother I have been finding it hard to speak. It’s not that I have nothing to say. Quite simply, the opposite is true. I have so much to say about her that it’s hard to get anything out.

We, her family, have all been slowly releasing her since she suffered a stroke in 2008. The moment when she finally was released was long in coming, fully expected, and, in some ways, a relief. But no matter how tenuous her grip on life had become, it was clear that her love for us wavered not a dot. And, even when you know someone was suffering, it is hard to know that this world now holds one less person who loves you. And the task of passing that love on is a staggering responsibility.

I am not sure I can adequately express what my grandmother’s example has meant to me in my life. Certainly, we were close. Beyond that, however, there have been times in my life when she, and only she, was able to convey that she understood me and what I was going through without any awkwardness. To speak simply and touch the truth without giving pain is a gift. I sincerely hope she has inspired me to be like her.

You can find her obituary here. Or, like me, you can plant some yellow daisies this spring and think, fondly, of the woman who said so often, “I’ll take five children to one adult, any day.” Those of you who met her, loved her. Those who did not missed out on a wonderful opportunity.

Merry Christmas to the Wise and Wonderful Betty Gray

 

 

 

This is the “shawlette” I made for my Grandma after they lost hers in the laundry at the nursing home. (It’s a wonderful facility, btw.) I did not make any notes because I have no intention of making another, but I held two strands of acrylic (wouldn’t want the institutional laundry to boil a nice wool, now) together to make it work up faster… one novelty and one worsted. The second skein of green turned out to exist only in my head, which is why you see it switch to pink…The body of the piece is worked in 2 & 2 rib and bordered on the neck side with moss stitch. I shaped everything with short rows and by increasing/decreasing to add/remove ribs as needed. And the flower? Well, now… that’s just what we do when there’s a spectacular decrease error right at the shoulder.

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It’s a boy!

We got a nice peek at our SON Michael Ian McNamara yesterday… here he is!  We’re at 19 weeks and the radiologist said to “keep up the good work!”

He has all his parts and is very active.  He has gotten strong enough to wake me up with his movements.  Michael says he still can’t feel him yet, but it will be soon.

My grandmother kind of wanted a girl- she said my next one “has” to be a girl!